I’ve found myself to be thinking about you quite often, just recently…. I do miss you….and sometimes it makes me really sad to think about you.
But i’ve learned to love being on my own.
I’ve caught myself liking someone else a few weeks back and have realized the only reason I am is because I’ve been missing you. Having the comfort of another man used to help me get through… But i know now; that will not be the solution to FULLY getting over you. So I told him I cannot be involved with him in a romantic way because I am not satisfied with the way that i am as an individual.
The day i do get over you, will be the day i forget you… well… the day i really stop thinking about you.
I know it has only been a month since we have last had a real conversation.. I hurt you.. I told you we could never be and that I hide you because I was ashamed of you, me, and us talking again. I will never be able to take that back… and i’m not sorry for saying what i had said. It was true. I have fully accepted we do not work out.. I will not change the way that i am to accommodate you anymore. I love myself, and to change what i love is to change who i am as a human being. granted, i do not love everything about myself, but that is my own battle to fight as i continue to grow and change those things about me… but i do love myself enough to have let you go and to be honest with you about why i hid you from my friends.
you were right though…. my friends did not drop me just because i did talk to you.
But what is done has been done. I assume after our last conversation you want nothing to do with me….
and you know what?
As tough as it was. I am truly grateful for the experience.
You have taught me so much and have helped me become the person I am today.
The man that never gave up on me; I thank you.